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I ADMIT IT...


i admit it. i AM KINDA bitter.
but if you were me you would be too, im honestly tryna move on from being w/ my first love of 4 yrs. i wont get into depth on it but if you know me you know the situation. a quick summary consists of me being in a mental, verbal, & physical abusive relationship, being cheated on all the time, my ex even got another chick knocked up! ha. smh. & yea i still have feelings for him, ive rejected his invitations to come visit him. i just dont wanna go down that road anymore, its unhealthy for me. im working on NOT being bitter its just another "trial & error" thing.

BUT, in the back of my mind i still cant trust these dudes. ive been burned TOO MUCH. but i really wish people wouldnt hold that against me & take what i have been through in consideration. im trying my HARDEST to move on & not judge the next guy like hes my ex, its hella hard. my guards are up hella high, but i think i met someone who is on my level so who knows ... i guess it'll just be more trials & tribulations until i FINALLY find "HIM" or "it", "it" being "love"

i posted this video a yr ago on my myspace blog.
honestly she spittin some real ish.
i will FOREVER agree w/ her even if im happily married w/ kids. i would LOVE to quote everything she say, but i much rather you watch it for yourself.



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Prince Vannie said…
Wow, this was powerful. I'm touched. I don't think i'm ever dating again.
October 22, 2009 at 11:30 PM
Brittani Alix said…
thats how i feel sometimes too...
October 23, 2009 at 11:12 AM
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