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ANTM ... MORE SHATTERED DREAMS

Today was america's next top model auditions / casting calls, at Memorial City Mall. I've been waitin on this since i was 12 or 13. So when i've always said I will go once im 18 & I have graduated from High School. Well both are accomplished and once I saw the commercial I knew it was my time. She was excited also, who is she? My Mom ... So this morning rolls around i realize its 9:13 am and the auditions are at 10. I knew I was gonna be late but oh well I really wanted to go early so i could be there before 10. So I call her on her cell phone and she wakes up, comes to my room and says "So your tellin me I have to take my two kids and go allll the way on the other side of town" Im like "But you said you were gonna take me" she says "Thats to far and its not required for you to go" and im like "ok mom i wont go then" and she gets an attitude. Im like how do you have a right to get an attitude i said i wouldn't go! It made me so mad bc she knew ive ALWAYS wanted to do this, and if she knew she wasnt gonna take me she should have told me for the past two weeks she was gonna take me! She been cheering me on talkin about goin and when the day comes, she trippin abt it. So I looked up how far it would take to go to memorial city mall it takes 23 MINS to get from my house to there, and she was makin it seem like it was in another city! Im just pissed but another time will roll around I will be able to take myself! I just dont understand parents! I would have rathered antm turn me down then my mom not takin me and shattering my dreams....
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