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RIGHT WHEN I THINK YOUR GONE...


... you come right back ...
8 MONTHS LATER YOU WHEN CHECK UP ON ME?

march 26, 09 - 12:39 a.m.
i get a phone call as im slowly driftin to sleep.
i didnt recognize the # & i wasnt gonna answer it anyway.
but somethin told me too.
so on the other line there person says "whats up what you doin"
i knew the voice to well. but i pretended as if i didnt & asked "who is this"
& he responds "so you forgot my voice damn" im like "man i know who this, why are you callin me what do you want?" "i miss you, & im just tryna check up on ya to see how you been doin" hmm smh. 8 motnhs later mr. ronnie roberts wants to check up on me. my heart dropped. we talked 5 mins or less & he had the nerve to ask "had i been fckin anyone else" nope 8 months strong & 8 months single. i dnt plan on it no time soon either unless im in a serious relationship & i feel COMFORTABLE enough.
only time will tell. im just shocked & confused ... now im thinkin abt all the memories more & more rapidly & often everyday more than i usually do. anybody that knows me knows i loved the shit outta him & i still do. thanks to my guardian angel (wel) i saw some things in a better perspective & im not gonna jump into anything. im not gonna call him. ive been doin good this long. if he wanna talk to me, sure he can but i dont plan on makin anything happen with him. if he has changed. & wants to be with me. it will have to be on my terms. NOT HIS. he will have to prove it to me. & im not bullshitin. listen to T.O.N.Y. BY SOLANGE & its my situation perfectly. i cant believe im even considerin bein back with him, im not fully sayin that either. im just statin what would happen if it gets to that point. as of now though im good. single life is better for me right now.
even though i am missing him everyday, this has thrown me off. & i think he knew it would. he knows me too well, but im not gonna show that.
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I Am Wel said…
Thanks for the plug Breezy, you remember what we talked about, So stay strong. I know doors will open for you. Have a fun filled week. -Peace-
March 29, 2009 at 2:53 AM
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